I have been thinking about this post for the last few days but I fear that it makes me sound a little smug and superior.
I don't want this to be a case of "I'm better than you because ..."
Oh, bugger it, this is about ME ... not anyone else OK?
I am thankful that
~ although I have gained weight over winter, I only have 5 kilos to lose not the 20 kilos I started with
~ I have already built muscle so I although they were a little doughy, my muscle memory means that they have come back quickly
~ I have been eating low carb for over a year so that increasing my carbs to a moderate level (150g max) has given me a huge boost of energy
~ most of my clothes still fit even though I am carrying 5 kilos of extra weight
~ I am the fittest person that I know in my circle of family and friends (there are plenty of you fitter/thinner than me in blogworld but I don't actually know most of you)
~ I have been eating healthy food for so long that junk food doesn't even taste good anymore *except for sugary things mentioned in the bad section
~ I love fruit and veges *except for brussel sprouts, cabbage and cauliflower
~ I am accustomed to artificial sweetener, low fat cheese/milk/yogurt, diet coke and sugar free lollies so I don't miss the real thing
~ I am programmed to get up early and exercise. Even on the weekends I can't sleep in
~ I have my own home gym and treadmill
And just so you don't think my life is perfect and I'm an utter bitch, here are the bad parts:
Things I wish I could change
~ I still don't enjoy drinking water - it still makes me go to the bathroom A LOT
~ my skin will always be flabby with stretch marks
~ my boobs have G O N E
~ my arse has G O N E
~ my inner thighs are wrinkled
~ my neck is getting crepey
~ I have batwings
~ my husband eats crap, doesn't do any exercise and wishes I was fatter
~ I struggle with binge eating especially on a 'free' or 'refeed' day
~ I'm fatter than most people I see on TV or in magazines
~ I am usually cold most of the time
~ sugar triggers a binge which means I can never just have one slice of cake/cheesecake/chocolate and leave the rest
~ I think about all this SHIT all the time
~ my eyebrows and my pubes are turning grey !!