Just a quick update to let you know I made it through yesterday. No trophy (and they gave out 5 in each division!) and no tiara. My final weigh in yesterday morning at 5am was 54.8kg so I made my goal (with a bit of dehydration assistance).
I will post pictures, a full report and a debrief later when I get some time.
The short version of my experience is ...
I don't need to go through the physical and psychological rigours of competition day to feel good about myself when I already feel amazingly proud of what I look like. The whole tanning, dehydration, sodium depletion, rice cakes/honey carb loading, fake nails/eyelashes and hooker shoes all seems rather pointless when I don't need external validation of my achievements.
I hope I don't sound like a sore loser, and that you think I would feel differently if I had placed. I don't think it would have made a difference. I feel healthier, fitter and prouder this morning after an RPM class and a bowl of porridge than I have for the last 2 weeks.
Contest prep was great discipline and focus for me, but the things I learnt about myself along the way are much more valuable than standing on a stage, looking like someone who wasn't even close to who I am, for 5 minutes yesterday. I have done it, ticked it off the list, and now it is time to get on with living a HEALTHY life.
(not a very short version I know!)