And after ...

I had to take a photo of myself for another purpose so I thought I'd post it here.
Notice the tiny tiny boobs - I don't even have a bra on :-)
Something unthinkable when I was 80 kgs.

My expected loss this week didn't go to plan - I only lost .3kg of the recent gain.

Along with other things going on in my life, this triggered a huge binge after weigh in on Tuesday night - a real "eat everything in the house" type binge including apple pie and pizza.

I felt so sick after that episode that eating clean after that wasn't a problem. This week I have switched to no count and stopped weighing myself twice a day at home. I am trying to sort out what's going on in my head as I can do the eat and move thing without too much trouble - just the "think" part of it is difficult. I want to stop obsessing about what I eat and what the scales say. It is driving me crazy!! I am trying to trust my body and listen to my hunger. Instead of going all day on hardly any food because I am so busy at work and then eating all night, I am trying to eat and SNACK during the day. This is day 3 of the experiment and it seems to be working so far ... fingers crossed. I don't feel ravenously hungry at dinner and have even had two nights without dessert!!! YAY!!

It is my birthday on Monday and hubby bought me a slow cooker. I have already made ratatouille [can't spell it] and it tasted so good. All those veges -YUM.

The black cloud has lifted - I am back in control - I am looking forward to the freedom of forgetting about food all the time.