Now I have detailed records from 1 May 2005 so I can tell you what I ate and how much I worked out over the months following reaching goal. My weight stayed between 58 and 59 kgs but I rarely ate over 1200 calories a day, days under 1000 were frequent. Exercise calories burnt were almost always over 500 a day, some days over 1000 [when I worked out morning and night] and there weren't very many rest days at all. For some reason I stopped recording at the end of September - I can't remember why.
What I do remember vividly is that I was constantly exhausted [are you surprised] and got chest pains just walking down the street. I went to the doctor who sent me for an exercise ECG but I tested completely healthy. No-one knew what was wrong with me [can you say burn out? can you say starving yourself?]. I also remember the constant feeling of panic - if I wasn't losing weight with no food and heaps of exercise, what was going to happen if I ate more and exercised less - oh my god - I would get fat again. I couldn't face the thought that I had to live like this for the rest of my life. To add insult to injury, I wasn't getting those muscles I wanted [and I would be building them with what precisely?] and my knees ached constantly. I lived on painkillers and deep heat.
I thought that the chest pains might be the result of smoking [how else could I suppress my appetite!] so I gave up in December. Once the dam was opened the flood waters were unstoppable - no cigarettes = non-stop eating. I tried to eat healthy but I still gained weight - back up to 64kgs, I stopped sleeping properly and kept bursting into tears. Now I was trying to lose weight again while constantly battling hunger and some weird depression thing!
This went on for a few months until March 06 when I went overseas again to work. I hated the job, hated being away from home, I found it hard to exercise [no gym at the hotel], nowhere to cook, eating foreign food [especially difficult in the USA where EVERYTHING has sugar in it including wholemeal bread], and long working hours with no real meal breaks.
I tried but my typical day was a morning walk, a few body weight exercises, a healthy breakfast, a bit of fruit for lunch, no time for dinner, ending with a treat/binge on the way home from work [late at night after a crappy day]. I ate heaps of croissants, chocolate, iced buns, muffins - you should see what you can buy in a US all night store - all the carbohydrates that I craved.
I came home in May 2006 and I weighed almost 68kgs. Some of my clothes were too small - lucky for me I had clothes in every size [16, 14, 12, 10, 8] so I moved up to the 10s again. Time to start again but now I needed help. This time I headed for Weight Watchers.
Stay tuned for Part Three - Low Fat Misery vs Low Carb Luxury.
PS: I just read this back - I have realised that I came dangerously close to an eating disorder - wow that's scary ... the next installment chronicles improvement I promise so don't worry!!
PSS: Read this blog Skwigg Blog which summarises all the hard lessons I had to figure out for myself. Do what this says and you won't go through all the rubbish I have. If there is a secret to being healthy and fit - this is it !!! I kid you not - so go read it, print it and do it!! So there!! :)