Today I have a fully fledged cold sore. It is on my chin just under my bottom lip. I hate having cold sores.
Nothing I do seems to help. I have used "Zovirax" so often it makes no difference. My chin is swollen, sore and itchy and it looks hideous. I want to put a bag over my head and hide.
So even though I knew I would get a weight spike this morning, seeing 61.9kg still gutted me. This is the biggest increase I've ever experienced -- 1.7kgs. Either this means I've done something wrong, or I did something right?? Who knows? Last week I gained less than 1/2 kilo eating junk food all day.
Yesterday I ate mostly complex carbs - sprouted grain bread, bananas, potatoes, cornflakes, organic corn chips etc. No sugar, no chocolate just "clean" food.
Today I feel fat, bloated and ugly with a big festering sore on my face. I'm having a "pity party" just to remind you all that I am not Miss Happy Pants ALL the time.
Lesson for today: although I know intellectually that my weight will increase after a carb re-feed it is still very difficult to deal with it emotionally when you feel like sh!t to start with.