T minus 9

Weight : 56.2 kg (123.6 lb)
Yesterday's Food : You have used 1414 out of your net daily budget of 1400 calories and have -14 calories remaining. 17% of the calories are from fat, 39% from protein, 45% from carbs
Exercise : Walk to Work
40 min : 275 calories : 149 max hr : 117 average hr

Dear Mr Katie

I wanted to thank you for all the support you've given me over the past 4 months. I know that you don't really understand why I wanted to lose any weight at all back in 2005 and even less why I want to compete in a figure competition, but you have never dismissed my goals as worthless or trivial.

I know that I have been cranky and moody and that sex has been the very last thing on my mind. I know that you think that I am far too skinny and probably quite unattractive to someone who prefers breasts and legs, but you have never, ever said that to me.

You have put up with me picking the meat out of the stroganoff and weighing it before you add the sour cream. You have endured the smell of cooking fish (which you hate) and resisted adding your beloved salt to anything you cook for me.

You have gone to the shops in the middle of the night to buy me diet coke, or spinach or sometimes a handful of sweets when I couldn't hold out anymore.

You have played the "my scale is broken" game by weighing yourself seven times in a row and agreeing that they are indeed inconsistent.

You have tried your hardest to look interested when I parade around the bathroom flexing my muscles and have ignored the irritating noisy clopping of my highest heels up and down the hallway.

You affectionately call my training "hopping" and didn't even complain when I woke you up out of a deep sleep to look at me modeling my "hopping pants" (competition suit).

You have even offered to come to watch me compete when I know that you would rather have hot needles in your eyeballs.

For all of this I thank you. I know you will never read this because you're happy to leave blogging as something personal for just me, but I hope that you know how much this means to me.

You are truly the only person who really "gets" me, even if you don't really understand, you love me anyway.

I am blessed to know you and I am truly thankful that you have chosen to share your life with me.

Mr Katie, you are my lifeline in all of this chaos. I love you.