Diet Slut

After my first love, there were many many boys and men between 16 and 26 when I met my husband.

There were beautiful boys with not much creative thought, there were men who wanted to control me, there were intense depressing men and playful irresponsible boys.

As each relationship started, I felt sure I had found 'the one'. There was chemistry, mystery and the promise of an exciting future filled with adventure. They all promised to deliver what I searched for - unconditional love, love of the real me who was crazy, funny, serious and driven all at once.

It took 10 years of searching to find my soul mate, and even that relationship had a rocky start.

What made the relationship with Mr Katie different from all the rest? It wasn't that Mr Katie was the only perfect man, it was that I had discovered what I didn't want.

All those men displayed personalities, spirits or behaviours that I didn't want in my life. I had waded through all of the options and had determined what were the not negotiables. I don't resent those boyfriends for not being right from me, and I don't regret the 10 years I spent finding my way. The very act of being wrong, led me to being right in the end.

So it is with my eating strategy. I sometimes feel like the biggest diet slut because I have tried nearly every diet out there. I can tell you how Atkins got angry when I flirted with carbs, how Weight Watchers didn't care about the carbs but would punish me for talking to fat, and how intuitive eating didn't even worry if I slept with other people as long as I was happy.

After nearly 4 years of searching for the perfect match, I am not sure that I have even now found 'the one'. I might even be one of those people who needs a bit of everything and can never commit to a long term relationship. All I know now is what I don't want - I don't want low carb, I don't want low fat, I don't want just clean food all the time and I don't want to feel so restricted that I rebel.

Being a diet slut is not a bad thing - it is the journey of self discovery. I am not an exercise slut, however, weight training will always be my one true love and cardio is my bit on the side, only when I am in the mood. That one is easy!