Yesterday I started the day on a high. A new lowest weight ever and the achievement of my major milestone for 2009. By the end of yesterday I felt like I had ruined it all.
My eating was out of control. I didn't have enough self discipline to stop shovelling crap into my mouth from lunch time until I went to bed.
This morning I have a carb hangover, a bloated belly and I am seconds away from bursting into tears. I totally fucked up.
Hopefully, this doesn't put me back too far. I have just run for a punishing 90 mins on the treadmill to try to undo some of the damage.
I just wish I could stop doing this to myself.
