It has been interesting making the decision not to stand on the scales multiple times a day. It has made me focus on eating well and training hard without any feedback from the scales.
I have noticed that no matter what the scales say, they mess with my already messed up head.
(1) LWE - Lowest Weight Ever
When I see a Lowest Weight Ever number I often move into binge/sabotage territory. I feel either frightened that I am losing lean body mass or I feel that I am doing so well that I can afford a few extra calories, carbs or junky treats. As mentioned before, I have negative motivation - I am motivated NOT to be fat so when I see concrete evidence that I am actually not fat anymore, I lose my drive and determination.
(2) WWD - Wrong Way Dickhead
When I gain weight on the scales for no particular reason, it completely depresses me for the whole day. I question my diet plan, my calorie range, my training strategy and my mental toughness. I am reminded that whatever I am doing isn't 'working' so I spin out of control futilely looking for an alternative plan that will deliver constant linear weight loss. I see cellulite on my arse and fat rolls inside my legs. I am often overwhelmed by a sense of hopelessness.
So it would seem that I am f*cked no matter what number comes up on the scales every morning, afternoon and before bed. It is a relief to be free of the burden for a while.
But I am starting to get freaked out by what I see in the mirror ...