My weight is going down every day and I am no longer consumed by persistent hunger.
It doesn't make any sense - if we believe the calories in vs calories out propaganda then I am having 600 calories more a day than I normally do (the amount I burn in exercise). I should be gaining or at least staying the same.
I could be burning up all my muscle and stacking on the fat, but I don't think so. I look leaner, I feel amazing and it is nothing short of a miracle.
When I get back to the gym [which I will because I want to keep my muscles] I am not going to be burning 600 calories and staying there for an hour and a half that's for sure. I'm going to sleep past 5am, get up later - do 30 minutes lifting or cardio (not both) and then add the calories I burn on to my base line calorie level [I'll start at 1600 calories and slowly increase if I continue to shrink]. 1600 is plenty if I'm not h.u.n.g.r.y 24 hours a day.
It makes me ponder on the times I have lost fat - those time when I have cut back on training because I have been too exhausted to 'smash' myself.
Something might be better than nothing, but nothing appears to be better than too much! I guess it all comes down to 'moderation' again - extreme anything does more harm than good.
If I can maintain my weight while being rested, fed and un'smashed'- I will have died and gone to heaven.