Today I am grateful for all the things I didn't earn, achieve through my efforts, work for, or deserve. You could say I am 'lucky' to have these things, but it is not luck, it is simply how things are in the part of my world that doesn't require me to be worthy.
♥ I am thankful that I can wake up each morning in a warm bed with my loving husband laying beside me
♥ I am thankful that I am a morning person and I can sit at my desk and drink a hot cup of tea while I watch the sun rise over the harbour
♥ I am thankful for the person who grew the tea, the person who transported it in their truck, the shopkeeper who put it on the shelves and the money in my pocket that enabled me to buy it.
♥ I am grateful that I have a comfortable house that gives me shelter and safety
♥ I am thankful that I have two strong legs that take me wherever I want to go. I am grateful that I have strong, capable muscles that enable me to love walking and running
♥ I am blessed to have a fully functioning body - eyes to see, ears to hear, arms and hands, a heart that pumps blood, lungs that provide oxygen, organs that digest and eliminate the toxins, a healthy mind, and skin to hold me all together
♥ I am thankful that I have healthy, nourishing food to eat when I am hungry that someone grew, transported and delivered to me
♥ I am grateful for fresh, clean water, a hot shower, washing my hair and brushing my teeth
♥ I am thankful that I can walk to a jetty and catch a ferry to work
♥ I am blessed that I have a job that I am good at, people who support me, and an adequate pay packet
♥ I am grateful that my colleagues give me compliments on both my appearance and my performance
♥ I am thankful that I am comfortable speaking in public and I have a quick brain that learns quickly and retains information
♥ I am blessed that I have a thirst for knowledge, an open mind, and enjoy learning something new every day
♥ I am grateful that I have a mentor/coach who is thrilled to spend time helping me
♥ I am thankful that I have wonderful friends who love and support me no matter how bratty I am
♥ I am blessed that I have a husband who adores me and a kitty who loves me unconditionally because of who I am not what I do
♥ I am grateful that yoga centres me and the company pays for me to do it
♥ I am thankful that I love to read and I can express myself through writing
♥ I am blessed that I have a sense of humour
♥ I am grateful that I am not afraid to make mistakes
♥ I am blessed that I am emotionally balanced
♥ I am thankful that I have all these things that I don't have to be 'good enough' to deserve
When I identify all the things that have be given to me, it reminds me that I don't have to work hard for joy and happiness. I don't need to be the 'best' to have all these wonderful things in my life.
I am carefully unravelling my core belief that tells me I need to be a setting challenging goals and achieving them in order to be happy. I am questioning whether waiting until I am successful (or more successful than others) to feel proud and happy is causing me pain. I have been earning my happiness through my actions and suffering the harsh judgment of my inner critic when I'm not perfect. I will never be good enough because I just keep setting the bar higher and higher ~ losing weight turned into being a gym junkie, turned into competing with a coach, turned into competing without a coach, turned in to staying competition lean all the time ...
The question is ... does good enough, or not good enough really even matter when I already have all these wonderful gifts I didn't need to struggle or strive for?
Could it be possible to live effortless, beautifully and magically?
*whispers* holy fuck ... I had no idea where this was going to end up when I started writing it ... it's like it just comes from nowhere!