I have been toying with the idea of competing in a figure competition for a while now.
I am conflicted because I am not sure so I have decided to do the old fashioned pros and cons list
I need a tangible goal to work towards that is not just focussed on the number on the scales
I would like to be lean and muscled like those girls in the fitness magazines
I would like to see how hard I can work with a deadline
I would like to feel confident and beautiful on stage
I have a performance background both offstage and onstage so I'm fine with being on stage
I have been overweight so I have stretch marks, loose skin and cellulite
I am not very girly so I am not sure about the glitter bikini and hooker shoes
I have a very demanding job so I am not sure that I have enough time to devote to this
I am not certain I can actually look like I need to - I don't know that my legs will ever be in shape
I am worried that the severe dieting will trigger disordered eating
I am concerned that I will want to look competition ready all the time and know that is not possible so I will spend the rest of my life disappointed in how I look post comp
I have no idea how to pose, what I even need to do - a routine?
I will have to find a trainer and join a gym when I love working out at home and doing my own thing
I have no boobs
So it looks like there are more cons than pros but that has never stopped me before. I don't want to let fear stop me going for something!
The Australasian Natural Bodybuilding comp in Sydney is exactly 16 weeks away which is (apparently) the ideal contest prep time so I have to decide soon.