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Tuesday 31 March 2009

Soul Searching

May I draw your attention to my training stats this morning. The result of more food and a new training program. I did weights + intervals and then steady state. It was hard but good. I feel amazing now.

It is clearly evident that I am not going to lose enough weight to compete in 6.5 weeks eating the way I am at the moment. I have a difficult choice to make. I can either reign it in and go strictly low carb, clean food, no cheats for the next 6 weeks or I can move the goal post to possibly competing in the All Females in July [after all I have a new bikini to wear at some point!].

This could be seen as a cop out, a failure or an inability to put in the hard work, but I remind you that my primary goal is not competing but to maintain a sub 60kg weight, not lose any muscle, have enough energy to train hard and to not binge. This sounds easier than stripping off weight aggressively for a competition but trust me it is not.

I know I can lose enough weight to compete (because I have already done it) but I have never been under 60kg for any length of time without an inevitable relapse and weight gain back up over 60kg.

I am happy that I fit into my pre-competition clothes. I am happy that I can smash myself in the gym and feel better afterwards, I am happy that I am eating food that gives me both fuel and pleasure. I am working as hard as I can to achieve my goal.

So I am probably out of the competition race for now, but I am definitely working my guts out to achieve my mission :
eating healthfully ~ exercising joyfully ~ living passionately

6 comments:

  1. Being happy is far more important than competing and as long as you are happy with your decisions then that's all that matters. I'm behind you 100%.

    What a great sess you had this morning.

    3 more sleeps till I can see the beautiful you.

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  2. Hard decision Katie, but one only you know the answer too.
    Maintaining in my eyes is much more importent than competing and also much harder than getting in comp shape.
    SHar x

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  3. Hard decision Katie, but one only you know the answer too.
    Maintaining in my eyes is much more importent than competing and also much harder than getting in comp shape.
    SHar x

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  4. God, yes! All those things are much, MUCH harder than losing weight.

    It'd be awesome to see you onstage at the All Females. It's always more fun when you have someone to cheer for. :o)

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  5. Agree, maintaining is harder than getting the fat off. Sounds like you are happy, which is the main thing. There will always be another competition.

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  6. hey Katie, great post! You have all the important things covered! I am facing a similiar decision, but have come to terms with it, I was looking at the All Female Classic as well, except I think I have to live in New South Wales.. which I don't.
    Wishing you the best! :D

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