It is very late on Friday night and I am confessing to my fellow Pirates and relinquishing a Skinny Bone.
I have eaten a fair amount of crappy food tonight. It has not been a full blown binge by my standards, so I am clinging to the comforting thought that something (some restraint) is better than nothing (no restraint).
I am uncertain as to why tonight I had a meltdown. Perhaps it was the low calories/low carb over the past 12 days but I had some carbs last night (pasta at a restaurant) and I was fine.
Anyway ... why doesn't matter ... I am drawing a line in the sand, sucking up my mistake and starting afresh in the morning. I am so good at dishing out advice to other people but I continue to find it extremely difficult to practice what I preach.
I still don't know how to find a deficit that gives me gradual fat loss without leaving me starving, exhausted and prone to rebound overeating just to ease the constant gnawing hunger and empty hole in my stomach.
I am grateful that I have you, my 'crew', to keep me honest and on track. The last thing I want is to lie or to avoid mentioning what is going on in my life/head. Today has been shit - not as shit as in the past, so I guess that's progress.