I used to sometimes have nightmares that I had eaten all the unhealthy processed food I could get my hands on. When I woke up, I would be relieved that it was just a dream.
For the last two mornings I have woken up and realised that it was, in fact, reality.
I have been eating so much crap over the past two days, it is rather frightening. I do fine all day long, but once I get home at night I can't stop eating. I eat my healthy dinner and then spend the rest of the night in the kitchen eating whatever rubbish I can get my hands on.
I was going to say that I am unable to stop myself. But of course, no one is forcing it down my throat, I am doing this to myself. I am sitting here this morning still feeling stuffed from last night's episode.
I'm terrified that all my self control has gone and that I will undo all the hard work of the last 4 months in a matter of days.
Please do not be alarmed ... I wrote the above words exactly one year ago today. It is sobering to reflect on the past and how differently things were back then.
You can even go and read the same day in 2007 which might be even more depressing - Guido (my cat) had just been put down and I had just been mugged (was it really 2 years ago??)
I wonder if the 2007 commenters Sherrie, Amy, and PJ still drop by occasionally?
If you are a long time blogger, why don't you read your entry from this time last year and share the link in the comments section? Do you recognise that person? Are you in a better or worse place? What do you know now that you wished you knew then? Where do you hope to be on this day in 2010?
This should be an annual event - someone please remind me next year ...